"From the standpoint of wisdom, there is no such thing as failure, only experience." - Richard Rudd

What are you ready to create to find abundance in your life?

The New Moon is always a great time to set intentions and find awareness around what you want to create in the next month. This energy is feeling extra abundant and exciting due to the planetary shifts this week. On May 15^th Mercury retrograde ended, May 16^th Jupiter moves into Taurus and today’s New Moon in Taurus feels like the push of ambition I have needed after such a crazy eclipse season.

Does anyone else feel like they were thrown into a washing machine, spun around a million times, rung out to dry and then put back on their feet in a completely different place on the map than you ever expected to be in the month previous? My month was INTENSE. As I write this, my mind went to using the statement, “my life was a hot mess this month” but that vocabulary and mind set doesn’t work since I know I asked for it. When you are embodying the planetary energy and asking your guides to put you on the path for your best intentions, you better believe if you are not listening, they will create a dynamic that is a blow horn in your face to listen.

As I have been consciously embodying the energy of the moons and planet placements more and more, I am continually asking my guides to help me align with the healthiest and most abundant path there is for me. This means that in times of shake up when I am not aligned the energy is going to really let me know. So that washing machine feeling was crazy and out of the blue, but it happened FOR ME. I didn’t fight it, I only leaned into what the best course correction was for me. It was uncomfortable and there were pieces of it that hurt my heart, but I had to learn my lessons and my part so that I can step into my aligned path.

This is life. Blissfully thinking you are aligned and where you need to be just to find out you took a wrong turn somewhere. The wrong path was not a waste of time, it taught you something. You can lean into the lessons learned on that path and course correct at any time.

The shakeup of eclipse season is over and now we are in an energy of abundance, passion, and extreme potential. The Taurus New Moon represents a time of planting seeds and setting intentions related to stability, abundance, and material well-being. It is an amazing time to focus on everyday matters like finances, your career goals and building the foundation you need to build the future you dream of.

I realized the other day that my entire life I had dreams about who I would become. I knew what I wanted to do and what that looked like. In the chaos of life, the last few years, I have been hyper focused on following what I want to do in my career and what the role of mother looks like, but I haven’t had a clear vision of what I want my future self to look like. I can take all the classes and learn all the information, but how am I going to align with who I want to be without a vision of this woman and who she is.

What lens are you looking at yourself through? What would bring you abundance to live the life you want to live?

- Amanda ( @luxhealingarts 💕)

Aries New Moon - Spring is here! 

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Hello Aries season and new lunar cycle of the energetic New Year! Did anyone else get so excited for spring equinox and then immediately want to hibernate for another month??? Only me? I have a feeling I am not alone.

Spring is exciting! We hear so many people say, I cannot wait for Spring to finally be here. The days are longer and Aries season brings this fire that ignites us into action. Then I looked out my window saw the snow, and my body was reminded of how tired it still is. Again, I have a feeling this is not just me feeling this energy.

We welcomed spring, Aries season and the Gate of Innocence all at once. This is an amazing energy shift but can also be an overwhelming one. We live in a world of instant gratification and hustle culture that tries to disconnect us from our bodies. It wants to distract us from our own energy flow and convince us that “we need to spring clean”, “shed the layers”, “work smarter not harder” …. blah, blah, blah. I honestly am so sick of the same messaging I see so much of.

Everywhere we look it is some kind of programming that is trying to convince us that we “need” something outside ourselves. Aries season reminds us that is all within us. There is a fire that burns inside each one of us and the Aries energy is going to bring attention to the things we want and the things in our life that we may need to address.

The energy of the Gate of Innocence in Human Design is in our Identity Center. This is our heart space. It is asking us to connect with whatever source we believe in and trust that we are in alignment for our highest good. This energy may make us question if we truly are in alignment and may allow us to see where we may want to pivot. This is a great time to ask yourself; who do you want to be? What do you want to do? Where would you like to see growth and action in your life?

This New Moon in Aries is here to spark our fire! Sparking our fire all begins with healing our thoughts. If we are stuck in a place of victim mindset, this will never work, we will always stay stuck. If you feel this intense energy pull you to do more, this is the energy igniting you. Just a reminder to take it slow. As we move from Winter to Spring, we tend to jump into that instant gratification and try to move too fast and this is old programming.  I would empower you to realize that you are moving out of the rest phase and just like a flower blooms, you will slowly start to grow and blossom.

Affirmations for the Aura Types:

Reflectors: I am going to take this time to dive into my feminine, trust my wisdom, and have patience about my goals.

Manifestors: I honor my rest cycle while also trusting the next impulse is coming. I trust my authority and allow myself to take up space and ignite those around me.

Projectors: I pause to honor my wisdom and vision. My perspective is powerful, and I trust those that align with my guidance will find me.

Manifesting Generators: My energy is impactful and I embrace all of the ideas and paths before me.

Generators: I trust that my gut instinct will guide me to right the people, places and opportunities.

With love and trust in the universe,

Amanda - @luxhealingarts

Cancer Full Moon

With Mars in retrograde and Cancer being the most sentimental sign in the zodiac, the first Full Moon of 2023 brings some intense emotions with it. Cancer as a sign is ruled by the Moon. The moon represents our intuition, emotions, and our unconscious minds. Such a gentle reminder that if we embody the energy of the universe, we can find alignment and rhythm deep inside our bodies on a cellular level.

Cancer asks us to communicate our needs to those around us. Be vulnerable without hesitation to truly dive into what your “needs” are. How often do hide your needs because you are scared to say out loud what they truly are? Where can you find forgiveness? Where can you find softness? Where can you find the space in between truly going for your desires with full ambition and aligning with the pieces of you that are not quite ready yet?

We are in the energy of Gate 54 in the Human Design Chart. Karen Curry Parker refers to this as the Gate of Divine Inspiration. This is the energy of inspired action that asks us to wait for the right timing. Although this energy can feel confusing when we are not in alignment, we can use it as a tool to tap into what inspires us. Are you feeling an extra pull of inspiration right now?

The full moon energy is a great time to release and let go. This Cancer full moon is especially a great time for release and forgiveness. Cancer is a water sign, and you may feel the emotional water of your body, tears, begin to flow. Let them. Let your tears cleanse your spirit and release what you need to set yourself free.

What inspirational pull are you feeling after allowing yourself the freedom to feel?

- Amanda ( @luxhealingarts )

We continued the tradition of the messy Christmas Tree in our household again this year. This is the third year we have done this, and it has become a tradition that will continue every year in some capacity. The reason for the messy tree was to rectify a situation that my daughter was having a hard time with. I asked her what she needed to work through the emotions and her response was “I want a messy tree! Nothing can be perfect”. So, the Messy Christmas Tree in the Hill/Murphy household was born.

We throw the garland, the ornaments and anything we can get to stick at it. All the while laughing, giggling and mommy praying nothing shatters with the full pitch style throws at the tree. This is a memory my children are going to remember their entire lives and the best part of it for mommy is the lesson it carries.

There is no perfectionism. Perfect does not exist.

I share this with you today so you can remind yourself that your kids don’t want perfect. They don’t even know what “perfect” is. That is a fake goal that we teach them is possible through our actions and words. Guess what happens when you reach your so called “perfect” goal? The goal line moves and perfect always ends up being an unattainable goal, down a road that never ends.

Your kids want you. They want your messy. They want your smile and your love. Take a moment today to look in the mirror and say, “I am perfectly, imperfect and my love is always enough.” Christmas is not about the things; it is about the energy. It can be easy to get wrapped up in the commercialism of it all, but our kids just want our time and to feel like they are seen.

I hope everyone can pause and connect with their heart this holiday season. Sending love and heart felt energy to anyone who feels, overwhelmed, sad or not enough this year. You are always enough.

 - Amanda ( @luxhealingarts)

The more I experiment with human design, the more I am aware of the underlying currents and energies that affect us from day to day. Just like the placement of the moon and the astrological signs we use to forecast the energy of the collective, as we move through the I-Ching chart in Human Design, the energies of the gates, either activate us on a deeper level or give us a flavor of that energy as we move through it.
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For example, we were just in the energy of the Anja, in gate 11, which is the gate of ideas. I was downloading so many ideas this last week!! Rather than panic that I was supposed to do something with them all right away, I made note of them for later. I honored that this was the energy we were in and used it to my advantage. I was empowered by the flow and didn’t get overwhelmed by it. I was conscious of this extra energetic push and I was able to assist my clients in a unique way, knowing they would be feeling this energy as well.
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Today, my energy switched. My body intuitively knew the energy was coming yesterday. I spent the entire day cleaning my house and even went to the store to buy a new rug to replace the one I hated in my living room. I giggled when I checked the transit report last night as I was falling asleep. We moved into Gate 10 in our heart center today, which is the energy of self-love. Due to the fact, I have this channel activated in my chart (the 10-57 channel of perfected form), I am going to feel the pull to create a space that I love that reflects the energy I am pursuing. A cozy home…. which is exactly what I need today for security in the 1st line of this energy.
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We all have little nuances in our chart, so understanding the layers, helps us understand how the transits will uniquely affect us. Being that I am a Manifestor, with a cave environment, I need my space to reflect what I love in order to be in my full power of the love of self and aligned with my creativity.
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For those of you without Gate 10 in your chart, you may feel the pull to tap more into a self-love practice, or on the low end of the energy, you may find yourself questioning your worthiness.
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If you notice yourself slipping into victim mindset this week, try to switch your perspective. I know it can be hard but if you can find a way to see yourself and fulfill your needs, this is the most important thing you can do with this energy. Be curious about questions that come up involving self-worth. Go with the flow and find power in the understanding that you are your ultimate resource.
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I am sure you have heard the saying put yourself first! Well, this is very true right now. Honor that you are the main resource you have. You deserve everything you need. If you don’t tend to your needs and make sure your love for yourself is strong, you won’t be able to give to those around you.
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If you want to learn more about your personal birth chart and energy, reach out!

- Amanda (@luxhealingarts)

Ok, you guys, I need to address this new AI trend. It CREEPS ME THE FUCK OUT! I was weirded out by filters, but this is on a whole other level. I am not judging anyone who is jumping in and trying it, because I would love to see myself as a magical fairy too, but I am very concerned about our society’s mental health and the waves that will come from another layer of looking outside ourselves for perfectionism.

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The CDC states that teen suicides have increased more than 30% between 2007 and 2015 which coincides with the increasing use of social media use among teens. Suicide is the second leading cause of death in the age group of 10-24 in the nation. In Utah, suicide is the LEADING CAUSE of death in teens 15-19 and is almost double the NATIONAL RATE.

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I am sorry, but how can we ignore the fact that when we flood our social media with false representations of ourselves that we are not causing harm. I worry about the message my breast implants I got when I was 21 and the Botox I sometimes get in my forehead is sending my daughter, I can’t imagine if I was always looking outside myself in an AI app to find beauty within myself. Yes, read that again, it does not make sense! No amount of AI or surgery will change your beauty because your beauty is attached to your energy that is inside of you. My daughter said to me a few weeks ago “Mommy you have wrinkles around your eyes.” My reply was “because I have smiled a lot in life.” I am not perfect and get sucked up into the perfectionism wave at times but this one just feels different to me.

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Things I have seen that alarm me:

• This app is making people skinnier. Why are we saying skinnier is a prettier version of us and sharing it like it is a badge of honor?

• People’s faces have an unrealistic younger glow. Of course, if an app makes you shiny, you are going to sparkle. This reminds of the Instagram filters that make people look totally different and then you see them in real life, you wonder why they don’t present themselves online in their truth.

• The app is enlarging women’s breasts. I got breast implants when I was 21. I wish I could go back in time to tell that 21-year-old she was beautiful as she was. No number of surgeries, starving myself, trying to fit into the mold of perfectionism, helped me find happiness.

• You are literally becoming a cartoon. I always wanted to be Rainbow Bright, but I will leave it to an artist.

• They are stealing artists techniques that are people who have taken years to develop their craft. Artists, I see you. I honor your craft and we are going back to community. We have given away so much to machines over the years, and here we are doing it again.

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• The facial recognition pics!!! Maybe this is a far-fetched thought to be worried about but the fact every app on my phone opens with my face, makes me freaked out by this. I do not want to upload a bunch of photos of my face to an app.

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The most important currency we own is our energy! I know some people may do this app just for fun and they are fine. I know some people are doing this and it is making them wish they were a different version of themselves, and I know this is completely dangerous for others. I hope you protect your ENERGY and realize what you need and listen. Don’t let any app or filter tell you show you how beautiful you are. It feels so low vibe to me…this is just my opinion, and not in any way judgement. It honestly just feels scary to me.

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Do a photo shoot! Get dressed up and have some fun. Find beauty in yourself. Remember when we used to look at our elders and see their lines and older age as wisdom? I want to go back to that reality. This currently reality is literally making people sick.  I am worried for my daughter and other kids that are being raised in this unattainable false reality. Let’s show our children they are beautiful exactly as they are. In order to do that we have to believe we are beautiful as we are.

- With love only ❤️ Amanda @luxhealingarts

- Amanda ( @luxhealingarts ❤️)

For those of you that have followed my blog for a while, I have had to start new chapter of words and hide the previous stories for personal reasons. Don’t worry, the book is being written and the healing journey of empowerment and resilience will be shared again in the future.

Till then I am faced with starting a new chapter……again. I could feel defeated, or feel empowered, the choice is in my hands. That is what the lesson of life is. Starting over, so you can learn and grow. Thich Nhat Hanh said “Most people are afraid of suffering. But suffering is a kind of mud to help the lotus flower of happiness grow. There can be no lotus flower without the mud.” I have had discussions this week with a few people that have mentioned they feel “stuck”. I sometimes feel like I am stuck. But that is when I must surrender and realize I am growing. People try to hold you down or limit your voice when they feel threatened by you, but next time that happens, I want you to ask yourself; “Are they really holding me down or am I becoming empowered to learn and grow?”

This Leo Portal Energy and the Full Moon energy this week has been a giant push and pull for me. I was confused by all the Instagram posts of manifestation because It didn’t feel all “big dreams and let’s manifest” like it has in the past to me. It has reminded me of my life the last year. Some of the most amazing moments that have had me feeling so grateful mixed in with hate and darkness that has tried to drag me down.

When I looked up the planet energy this month, I understood why I was feeling this tension. This month alone: Mars clashed Uranus, Mars clashed Saturn, the Sun clashed Uranus, the Sun clashed Saturn, and at the end of the month Venus clashes Saturn. This energy creates and intense, uncomfortable energy, depending on where these planets are in your chart.

As we step into the Aquarius full moon we are in a clash between the sun and Saturn Retrograde. We feel a pull to step into our individuality and evolve but it is creating a pressure that is asking us what we have learned so we can grow. When I look at where the Aquarius energy is today and where it shows up in my chart, I find Gate 13.1 (Human Design, if you don’t know about this yet, reach out for a 1-1 reading and you will never be the same).

Gate 13 is the line of the narrative. Where are my old stories holding me back? The power of this gate is to forgive my past so I can learn from the lessons and show up as the best version of myself. I am here to create a personal narrative that is empowering. Karen Curry Parker says to master this gate you have “the ability to use the power of personal narrative to create with power and intention”. The gate being in line 1 means I need the fact and details. I had to investigate the energy so I could feel empowered to share my story around it.

So here I am on this Aquarius Full Moon changing the narrative with power and intention. It doesn’t feel like rainbows and butterfly’s but instead feels like I am a lotus growing in the mud. In our world of believing in magic, manifesting our dreams, and truly raising the vibration of humanity we must remember that we need balance. Only through the understanding of suffering can we set ourselves free.

• Amanda (@luxhealingarts)