Yesterday I posted a picture on my personal page that said, “recovery is possible.” I HAVE to believe it is. We have such a drug and alcohol abuse problem in our society that somewhere along the way it became cool to be the “party girl”. I was that girl in my 20’s. I even made my living off running establishments where the sole purpose was to get people as wasted as possible. I ask myself every day if my party ways in my teens and the idea that I didn’t think partying was that “dangerous” through my 20’s is part of the reason you are an addict now.
This week has been crazy. My aunt and I have worked so hard to create and launch this website. We are so blessed to have gotten the orders we did this week and we want to continue to grow on that. We have so many ideas and concepts we want to share with you. Thank you for your support!
This week all I wanted to do was dance, sing and celebrate and yet I had to see my aunt in complete torment. No parent should have to wonder why their child is missing. Knowing he is on the streets, without his backpack with the items that keep him warm this time. Knowing he is a drug addict. No parent should have to call hospitals and jails to see if he is there. No parent should ever have to feel these emotions.
Not only do I watch, but I feel the pain too. He is like a brother to me. I have fought to try to help him and keep him safe since he was a toddler. Hoping that someone lands in jail or a hospital just so you don’t get the call you never want to hear is a mind fuck (sorry lack of any term to fit right now).
One thing I do know is that talking to a friend who also has a family member putting them through the same situation helped. Talking and validating that the reason I haven't slept all week and the reason I felt like absolute death yesterday was okay. It’s a process that we have to go through individually. Each person having to heal in the way that is best for them. I can’t help my aunt heal but I can be here to give her support and love and hold space for her.
This is why Crystalline Tribe was created. Just between the two of us, we have been through so much in our lifetimes. That is every human being walking this planet. We all have a story. If we continue to talk and bring awareness maybe some of those stories can help change some of the chaos. At the very least we can create a space that lets people know they are not alone. We can create a space of love. We can share our stories to change the perspective of someone reading. We can create a world with more compassion and realize maybe the person next to us has more going on at home than we realize.
RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE. I BELIEVE. I WILL ALWAYS BELIEVE.
- Amanda (@missdjlux ❤️)