An interesting thing happened the other day, I was attacked on social media for writing my truth. The amazing part about it is that it didn’t bother me in the least. I read it, I felt bad for the person who took the time to write it and I moved on. The old Amanda would have second-guessed putting herself out there. She would have worried about others reactions. She would have obsessed about who might attack her next. She probably would have tried to scream from the rooftop about why what the other person said was inaccurate. But I didn’t. I didn’t even think twice about it. It felt amazing to not have it affect me at all!
This is what Crystalline Tribe is about. Creating a space for all voices to be heard. Whether it is good or bad, the hope is that it can change perspectives and turn it into a positive. My personal journey the last few years has been about finding my voice. Stripping myself down and truly addressing the things that have been holding me back. I stood in the shadows for so long, not understanding my personal worth. I want to talk about all the bullshit and all the mistakes. I want to continue to learn from myself and the other people around me. I want others to know, they are NOT alone.
Through speaking we can create change. My journey has not been easy. I got trapped in the victim mode for a long time after my divorce. If it hadn’t been for the people around me, helping me shift my perspective I would still be there. I am currently so in love with my life I want to scream it from the mountaintop. I have crawled out of a hole of tears and despair to get here and yes I am ready to tell my story. I have found my VOICE. I am not 100% sure in what capacity I will use it but I know something amazing is on the horizon. You see when my Aunt and I had the brainstorming session where our company Crystalline Tribe was born, it came from our heart. Our experiences and love started to flow through us with all these ideas of opportunities we could offer people around us. We had grown so much. We have learned so much and we want to continue to grow, learn, heal and share it with everyone.
It is about bringing awareness. It is about helping a generation “stay calm”. It is letting people know that life is not pretty. It is actually really ugly sometimes. We can choose to look at the ugliest of situations and find a beautiful flower in it. This is what happened to me with this negative attack. Rather than even taking an ounce of my happiness it actually made me feel stronger and happier. It made me realize how far I have come the last year. It was a sign from my angels showing me how much I have grown.
When Christine Sara took this pic of me holding my throat she showed it to me right away in the studio. I wanted to cry. I told her how I love that I am holding my throat because I have been working so hard to find my voice. A few days later she posted the pic with the following caption.
From @christinesaraboudoir blog: “In life finding a voice is speaking and living the truth. Each of you is an original. Each of you has a distinctive voice. When you find it your story will be told. You will be heard.” - @johngrishamauthor .
My voice. My story. My truth. No one can take it from me. I am only coming from a place of love. I am sharing my experiences so someone else can find their voice too.
- Amanda (@missdjlux) ❤️